Wednesday, September 19, 2007

This is your brain on music

Some of you out there are thinking this is the weirdest thing I've ever seen, but my fellow addicts are rejoicing in that they finally are free to admit to their obsession.

Really, I just wanted a place to talk about my life without boring anyone in person. A place to write out my problems and hope that when I sit back and look at them one by one they will seem somewhat smaller. At this point in my life, my problems are all over the map. From relationship troubles to studying (like what I should be doing right now), I've got it all. Not all on one day, mind you, but at any given moment I could be suffering from stress from anything.

That being said, today is the first day of the rest of my life. There are two ways to look at this. 1) It's the beginning of the end.
or
2) Today is a new day and I can choose to use it however I like it.

They always make such a big deal about how in high school you are "finding yourself". The reality is that you are expected to fit into some kind of mold somewhere. You may have more molds to choose from than say elementary or middle school, but you are expected to choose from the options set in front of you. You are supposed to have some idea of where you are going in life and if you don't, they tell you to make one up so that that blank on the standardized test doesn't ruin your whole score. You are placed by scores and abilities. In college, you are automatically (atleast for me) placed with people who have similar passions, but you aren't part of a cookie cutter population. I am discovering who I was all along. I was just too scared to let it show before. It was against the rules for so long that it took time to build up courage to make decisions that set me apart from everyone else. Nobody can be me like ME. I am the best at what I do!! Yay me :) What I wear is my choice, where I shop, what I do, the clubs I'm in. It's all up to me. Who I choose to love. All my choice.

At the same time, my mistakes are mine too and I must own them. But I'm up for the challenge. For the first time in my life, I can honestly say that I am happy being me. Happy with where I am and the choices I'm making. I don't want to be anyone else, but ME.

Considering the name of my blog I should probably include something musical so here goes:
Theme song #1:
Some girls play the game
They all walk and talk
And they dress the same
Nothin' New To Say
Don't they realize
That it's so easy to see
Right though there disguise
Makes me wonder why
When the whole worlds turnin left
It's when I'm goin right
I need someone to let me be
Just who I am inside

`Cause a girl like me
Is just a lil' different from all the rest
And a girl like me
Never Gonna Settle for Second Best
Could it be a boy like you
That would give me anything
If I asked him to
To take all my dreams
And Make them true
Show me all the reasons that you
Ought to be with a girl like me
Just like me

Possibility
Got me trippin'
Thinkin' of what could be
Between you and me
Still I need to know
Should I keep this feelin'
Or let it go
I can't wait no more
So now's the time
To speak your mind
And Show me what you feel
So tell me if you wana take,
a chance with somthin' real

`Cause a girl like me
Is just a lil' different from all the rest
And a girl likes me
Never Gonna Settle for Second Best
Could it be a boy like you
That would give me anything
If I asked him to
To take all my dreams
And Make them true
Show me all the reasons that you
Ought to be with a girl like me
Just like me

Mirror Mirror on the wall
Catch me now before I fall
I wish I may, I wish I might
Find the Answer here tonight
Mirror Mirror on the wall
Catch me now before I fall
I wish I may, I wish I might
Find the Answer here tonight

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