Two Steps Up, One Step Back

Oh how much heavier mistakes are than accomplishments. They seem to last so much longer, burn that much deeper. All the prayers prayed under the assumption you were above something were said the wrong way. The strength is there, but so often we don't lower our pride and take it. There is strength to be found in such moments. It takes God telling us. Whispering in our ear. If you listen you realize he isn't yelling his disapproval, but whispering his forgiveness and his love. In the end it doesn't matter the size or subject of the mistake. God forgives them all and mercifully casts them into a sea of forgetfulness. The hardest thing to admit is that we need him. Eternally. Physically. Emotionally. In every way. So here it is Lord. I know I messed up. You are teaching me slowly how to build true, Godly relationships. Let this be just another step forward and not another two back.